You lose when you do all the work. When you process and coach and coax things into surviving. When you deny creative destruction. When you don’t let what’s sinking, sink, and you drown yourself in the process.
You lose when you decide stubbornly that if they don’t stay, you’re not staying. What about standing in the truth of your love, either way? What about saying “I’m not done here,” without demands, without overextending. But with gentle knowing trust that it’s okay to let love flow its natural desiring course. Vulnerable, and completely okay.
You lose when you’ve convinced yourself that you couldn’t possibly do it without her, without him. Because you could. You can. The truth is, everyone eventually loses everyone. We all go home, to the Big Home, alone. Even the truest loves between two people are mortal. But the best loves help us remember the infinite love that’s beyond us.
Which brings us to winning…
You win when you heed your intuition about what will make you happy in a healthy, expansive way, rather than clinging to the attachments of your imagination.
You win when you let the leaving happen honorably; no fake-outs or fold-ins. The true you stays true. You win when you respect yourself and your desire for capital L-love, rather than fearing the loss of a nice-and-easy Like.
You win when you trust that Love is infinite. That everyone, everyone, wants to give and receive Love. That there is really, truly always more Love to go around.
You win when you realize there’s a spiritual love within your body, your being, your very sweet soul–and you can access it at any time. It’s inconvenient for our hopes of a constant material expression of love from another, but it’s still true. You Are Nothing But Love. And you win when you can tap into that truth, breathe in it, bathe and dance and sing and weep in it. That’s the biggest win of all.