I bless the mess of your holy rage.

At my Free Your Secret Bad Girl workshops, a third of the day was focused on re-activating our long lost NOs. We did a potent ritual that involved smashing the things we never got to say no to… the things we were finally ready to let go of. And let me tell you: OUR NO’S MADE BIG FAT SLIMEY MESSES. Holy. Sacred. Worthy. Messes.

This poem is an ode to the truth that the mess of our holy rage is worth it.

I bless the mess of your holy rage.
Sister.
Sister.
When you’re breaking out of a cage.
Chances are, you bleed.
Chances are, you scream.
Chances are… you break something.
Sister.
Sister.
I know you’ve been taught to clean everything up.
To be pretty, not rough.
I know you’ve been trying so hard to be good, and easy, and smart.
And so now to disregard your conditioning.
And so now to make a mess where you’ve been trying to be the best.
And so now to toss the table, to break the china, to not quietly abide or side with shame, oppression or hate.
Sister.
Sister.
For the sake of your sanity.
For the sake of your dignity.
For the sake of your daughters.
For the sake of your mother.
I bless the mess of your holy rage.
The way you say NO MORE.
The way you pray, the way your roar.
The way you lay down on the floor, palms open, sore.
The way you’re willing to crack solid cages for truth.
The undoing you do.
The renewing.
Sister.
Sister.
You are wise to let it be messy.
Sister.
Sister.
I am with you.
Undressing my uniform.
Revealing my softest skin.
Refusing the label of sin on my innocent, worthy, protective fire.
Sister.
Sister.
Sister.
I bless the messes you make.
For the sake.
Of your freedom.

Wishing you each an easeful holiday season. Times have been trying, but togetherness makes it bearable. Togetherness and resistance. The messy holy rage. For freedom’s sake. Freedom and justice.

Feel free to pass this email along to a sister whose anger you honor or who needs the sacred reminder that her fight is holy as hell.

I love you. So much.
xo,
Rachael

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