Rachael Maddox is a trauma resolution educator, coach and guide who dedicates her days to helping women who’ve experienced sexual trauma unshame and reclaim their pleasure, power and wholeness. She recently published her first book, SECRET BAD GIRL, where she tells the story of her own unshaming and reclaiming–of her wildness, her sensuality, her shadows and her light. Emerging now on a fierce mission to help as many women as possible who’ve experienced trauma, Rachael offers one-on-one support, groups, and courses for women who are ready to dance hard with life.
For fun, Rachael writes songs on her ukulele, swims naked as often as possible, and lays quietly under trees.
The beginning of Rachael’s journey into healing work goes a little bit like this…
It’s me, Rachael.
It was 2009. Jen was making scrolls and pulling animal cards and I was upstairs in her third floor artist’s attic… organizing shit. I was fresh out of college and had written her asking if she’d be my mentor because something about her art and writing made me feel like we were supposed to be friends.
Amidst Jen’s third floor chaos, I found the book Now, Discover Your Strengths, and decided to take the test. Jen looked at my results and said, “Rach–You should be a coach. You’re totally lined up for that work.” And I actually gagged.
“That’s gross,” I spat back. “First of all, the phrase ‘life coach’ is super weird. Nobody should pay somebody else to be a really good friend. Secondly, I’m too young. Who wants a 20 year old coach?”
That was THAT discussion. But secretly, I e-mailed a few coaches in the then-booming mom-blogger world, asking what training they did and if they’d recommend it.
Meanwhile, I was really unhappy doing all the organizational stuff for Jen. Together, we realized that the only thing I really wanted to do was take care of her kids. They were free and inventive and creative and relaxed, and I liked being with them. So I transitioned from “personal assistant” to “sister-wife”. Much better suited.
That September Jen & Andrea ran their first-ever Mondo Beyondo. It was a 6-week online course about dreaming big, and I could not handle it. I actually tried to stage a coup. In the class we wrote these fantastical lists of our most outrageous dreams… and I wanted to work mine like a to do list. Accomplish everything, immediately. There was a small group of other people in the class who were also freaking out, and I actually tried to BREAK OFF and take this do-it-now-freak-out-crew into the rigid land of making-it-happen.
As you can imagine, this was a bit of a conflict. “If we’re not actually going to DO our lists NOW, what’s the point???” “The point is to believe in magic, Rachael.” And then I actually said to Jen, “OH MY GOD–there’s nothing less reliable than THAT.”
I put my list under my mattress, per Jen’s suggestion, and within 2 years, 95% of the things on that list happened.
I rode a bicycle across the country.
I transformed my relationship with Brian, my then-husband, now friend.
I welcomed earth-shattering pleasure.
I learned how to let my body move in ways that healed me.
I met people who changed my life in an instant.
I built a house from the earth with my own two hands and received wisdom from Lakota elders that’s still with me today.
And I also learned that you can be afraid and brave at the same time, and not know what you’re doing, and have everything work out okay.
I know it sounds crazy, but the thing that got me through was letting myself believe in magic.
These are the stories that have shaped the work I’m doing today, and I so hope that together, we can collect more stories of what’s possible when we let magic guide the way.